I don't know about anyone else, but I was thinking about blowout and all around celebration at the Linc, in Philly and throughout the world thru the medium of BG Nation. But what we got was a slap in the face, getting blindsided and driven into the ground by a Clay Matthews hit. I actualy got a concussion just watching the game. I blacked out. The last thing I remember is McCoy going into the locker room before half-time and... I don't remember any further. I still can't remember anything else and am still having some recurring side-effects. Not cleared to watch next Sunday's game yet by my family and friends. Hopefully I will feel back to normal by then.
I see through the posts and articles online that the loss was painful and shocking. I'm glad I wasn't awake to witness that. But now that I am coming back to my senses a little bit, I am really worried, hurt, in pain, angry, shocked, fearful and angry, oh yeah and also humiliated. How could they have lost to the Giants ? I mean, how ? why ? what the... (Taking a deep breath and exhaling slowly). 'It's not worth it, just let it go' is what I tell myself. 'If it happens again then go all crazy, but just hold it together for now.' So I listen to the wisdom from within and keep my cool. But, I'm not going into next week on cloud 9 about my team and waiting for the team to come together. I go in unsure, undecided of the outcome of the game. For the first time in a long time, I'm going into an Eagles game not knowing or not expecting a certain outcome. It's clear that the team is still in 'pre-season' mode. Have you ever lived thru a 20 game pre-season ?? I haven't either, but we'll find out if we're in for one this year.
This team has a few issues (being biased) and they were hoping that the strengths would far outweigh the weaknesses and they would go through the season still winning games and letting the team develop at the same time. But I guess that's not how it works in the NFL. The other teams have some pride and responsibility to their fans not to just lay down. So that's what we saw the last 2 weeks, two teams whom we beat last year, seeking revenge and licking their chops on the prospects of even'ing out the score. The Giants have about 5 more to go, but that wasn't a bad start. Especially after what we did to them to end their year last year, you know they're gonna do whatever they can to win the 2 games against us, even if they lose all the other games. The Giants are sad in that way, a desperate team, I don't see them going better then 8-8 this year, but that's just my wishful thinking. But, I digress (especially after they beat us with half of their team on the IR).
So what is going to happen this year ? I have no idea, I think it's almost comparable to a re-building year where you don't know what to expect from the team. So I'm just gonna look at it like that, I'll go into the game thinking we are an underdog and seeing what happens. The hardest part is when you have your expectations set so high that when they don't materialize or are shattered, then the fall is great. And I've fallen and... can't get up (metaphorically). I'll just use this week to heal up and recover, I can't take this for a full season. I'm too emotionally involved to go through this over and over again. Fool me once, fool me twice... fool me thirteen years in a row, now that one's on me. So I'm gonna brush my dandruff off my shoulders and get up again. Putting my heart in a lock and key in a safe deposit box at Wachovia (or whatever they're called now), and go about my life. That feels much better. I've never been in a relationship that has caused me so much pain and anger and frustration that my fandom has caused me with the Eagles. It might be time for a break-up, I have to figure out my options, I'm not sure if I can get off this drug so easily. I'll have to go into a treatment center for recovering football addicts and hope to come out the other end a whole person.
I just can't do this anymore (unless the Eagles blow out the 49ers next week).
More after the jump.
Sorry about the negative / pessimistic outlook folks, but such is my journey with the Eagles. I'd also like to see what some of the older fans (who've been following the team at least since the Rich Kotite era, if not before) think, you all have been thru a lot more pain then some of the newer fans who've joined in during the Reid era. They don't have the same perspective (scars) as you do. So enlighten me.